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instant updates check out entries Sunday, August 30, 2009  i was extremely upset, again.it was PMS, pimples and mood swings- nothing new. the mood swings was one of the worst i had experienced. a fight with mummy doubled up the tension. i cried myself to bed in order to curb the bad mood. i totally do not want to screw my friend's big event. for those who saw what happened, i am sorry. i was out of control at my most fragile moment. i totally hate the time of the month. i feel bad when i know i am becoming more woman. by the way, how does it feels when your crush asked you to get yourself hook with a guy? PS: i needed most was your hug, not your physiological-reversed lecture. We Are 
Thursday, August 27, 2009 it was bad bad decision to stop for awhile, the momentum of blogging is totally gone! i am now a free bird with the end of my attachment! final presentation was okay, still its not very cool when your LO streching his arms and yawning! i am hoping for the minimum- simply a B to maintain my GPA. i do not think i am asked too much. (of course, A or B+ would truly be a delight!) for now, holidays are boring! there are so much i want to do, play sports, shopping, food hunting... too bad ALL my friends caught in the exams tyhoon, i had to plunge all my time into facebook applications... BLOODY NO LIFE! nah, life isnt that bad. i met pals for lunch buffets! YA! people been reminding me about my slimming plans every now and then... that can wait for a little while... i am looking foward to the coming weekend! 
Thursday, August 20, 2009  i wanna lay on the sofa drinking milk formula from a baby milk bottle while watching TV.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009 it was my first ever time driving a car! left the office for breakfast at Tanglin Halt, where i drove a Honda Stream around the car park. it was safe to drive then- the lots were 30% filled up. it was a total despair in that short 10 minutes! i turned the steering in two complete rounds to make a small turn? my colleagues fly out of their seats after i made an emergency brakes. to be exact, i took emergency brakes twice. the steering wheel was surely not my friend, damn! i was a freaking joke at breakfast- no one turns the steering like I do! i got a second time after breakfast. now i understand the steering is rather sensitive. other than almost hitting a stationary car, the trail was much much better, i even speed up alittle on a straight road. DRIVING IS FREAKING FUN!
Thursday, August 13, 2009 I shall lay out my 20th birthday plan: NO CELEBRATIONS NO CAKES NO GIFTS NO SURPRISES only well wishes allowed. for the past two three years, i had my birthday celebrated for a week. they were all very enjoyable! my heart still beats in happiness whenever i think of them. i am also enthusiastic about birthday celebrations and surprises, and many times i plan them so well, it was a blast! (not forgetting to mention friends who did the planning with me,it could be a flock without them) with such experience, i believe i am one who is hard to surprise. as i began to expect more from my friends, disappointment flood my heart. it was then i know i become a greedier person. greediness usually leads to jealousy, the deadest strait in me. a person told me this, "everyone would loved to be remembered on their birthday, right?". this bombastic phase made me ponder a lot. if you would to ask me that question again, i would only want my parents to remember my birthday. i born to a couple who have no flair in expressing affection. in fact, they are not even exciting nor romantic. our only family gathering are only a feast at resturant on birthdays. it is a pity i am not very close to them. it made me even want to spend this meaningful day with them. in a way, i want to express my gratitude for bringing up this difficult girl. with that, my heart feels enlightened. i not saying i don't need friends. i need them, i really do, everyone else does too. there is a black shadow casted over my definition of birthday in my heart, before it is remove, i shall decline all forms of celebrations. nevertheless, i will continue to plan for my friends' birthdays. it is something all of them deserve. PS: this is written almost three months from the day of release.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009 my prayers for breakfast was heard! i was so happy to see my favourite bee hoon, just enough for two other colleagues and myself! before i know, a queue was formed in spit seconds. i thought of jumping the queue because i wanted bee hoon so badly, but later i did Singapore proud by being a good citizen and queue up. i purposely say "i want bee hoon" aloud with burning desire in my eyes, hoping the rest would offer them to me. to my horror, the auntie pick up the tongs and gave two huge scoop for this TALL ARMY BOY IN FOURTH UNIFORM! i managed to get only a small serving of it. my intention was obvious and he still steal my bee hoon! he did not know i was craving for bee hoon for breakfast since two weeks ago! i remember your name, ANDY LIM! you failed to serve your country for making your citizen emotionally hurt! so upset, stupid idiot.
Monday, August 10, 2009 i am a bad person, for i bring no comfort or encouragement, and my words stabbed you deep times and again. i am also your friend, for i believe pouring salt onto deep wounds heal faster. despite all warnings, it still happens. it really hurts but i never expected it was worst behind your almost monotonous face. you made a good choice afterall, camp pinata was meant to fill up a part of you, can you ever imagine that part being empty? life is always about a balance between work and play, a balance between fun and pain. both takes a fair share, at times pain just seems to be a bit more overwhelming. telling yourself does not help, you have to come face to face with it. it does not mean you have to let it go or persist on, you just have to be frank to youself, because when you suceed, you will freed yourself from more heartaches. approach me if you need tips on that. i feel guilty after all the stabbing i have done.
Sunday, August 9, 2009 i flagged for the train when it was approaching the platform. how cool is that huh? HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! i only caught glimpse of the fireworks. i cannot wait for more in the coming fireworks festival.
they are so so hot!
Thursday, August 6, 2009 hold the party pops! my diarrhea is back, damn. it returned with a double wave, twice in a go. thankfully my tummy does not hurt so much now. i should have seen a doctor last night, and swallow those awful charcoal pills, damn. it is retribution for jeering at sick juniors in school, and boasting too much about my plump yet healthy body system. now i practically release almost immediately after meals, not even sure if my body is taking enough nutrition. one thing for sure, i only have slight dizzy spells after every session. PS: i look too healthy to be labelled as a ill person. Labels: damn diarrhea
ought to be proud of myself. i stands negative hundred chances against the sleeping god. However, i managed to fight back all temptations (to sleep) in mind and finished the clauses in drafts. The reason behind: I am deadly afraid of failing to meet the deadline on Friday. A good battle won after weeks of procrastination. currently, i am yawning profoundly and have a heavy head, one nostril blocked as well. Labels: defeat procrastination
Wednesday, August 5, 2009 sharmaine, i hope you are seeing this: i got my fair share of sleep on a working day! miraculously, my diarrhea stopped after a good 13 hours sleep at home, not even releasing after 2 meals. great, it saves me minimum $20 on consulation at my family doctor. i will be on the road to full recovery if the waves of stomachaches subside. though i fear for constipation. now my head is aching so badly i cannot do any work but to procrastinate, damn. PS: a well spent day off from work Labels: damn diarrhea
Tuesday, August 4, 2009 this is the last straw. i am seeing the doctor tomorrow! i just had diarrhea 6 times today, how cool is that? feeling all so weak now. it is my turn to fall sick, damn. Labels: damn diarrhea
that sums it all! have a nice week ahead!
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